Mess on my desk.
I just tidy up my desktop, other drives. Delete files from downloads. Delete them again from Recycle Bin. Then I sort them as types. Check which photo lost its relevance. Which song I don’t listen to anymore. I delete all the episodes of a series I have watched recently. Delete that garbage movie I wasted my valuable time on.
But I don’t feel calm enough after that. I just loved the process, thought my life was getting in place through it. But the second it’s done, everything is falling apart again.
So I start tidying up my reading table. Put the books on one side, notes on the other. Think about the relevant subjects I should study, and pull them to stack again. Remove the ones I previously put on the front, thinking I have to read them, and then never did.
I clean the desk with tissue papers. Put the pens and pencils in different holders. Clean my laptop with a brush. Make the screen look fresh again.
It’s all ordered now.
And my life is falling apart.
